Depression. Yes, it comes to me when the leaves on the trees start to fall. I know it triggers a memory from a long time ago. In some ways it is ok as it is a time to remember and give thanks, even though it was a moment in time that changed how I viewed everything in the world.
As it seemed the darkness and heaviness was not lifting as it usually did by the end of October, I looked for books to read, music to listen to, podcasts to play and yes even prayer.
You know that one of the symptoms of the current global disease is a loss of the sense of smell and taste. I had that, not because of the disease, but just about life. And it really did not make sense to me.
You know the movies where the person is out in the woods trying to start a fire in the pouring rain and barely getting a spark? That’s how I was feeling.
With the holidays coming, there are a lot of emotions and memories and sometimes it is not the way we want it to go. Last year was in the top 5 of worst Christmas’ ever in my life.
I had been reading about the importance of doing something for 90 days and how this is a way to create a new habit. There is difference of opinion on this, but it seems that 90 days of consistency will often provide this result.
So I started a ‘challenge’ – 90 Days to Spark Yr Beauty. It would take me from the beginning of November through to the end of January. And then I would be on my way into the New Year.
At the time of this writing we are on week 6. I already feel a shift in my being. I see a glimpse of a light that is ready to shine. The spark is certainly there, but it is still just an ember needing the extras to keep it going – oxygen, kindling, and gentle fanning.
While the advertised idea was not as exciting for those I invited, I am excited about where this is going. In fact, at the end of January, come back and I will tell you about the next project and how you can be involved. For now, let’s remember that if we reach out to get help, someone will reach for us. And then we can reach back to help those behind. Together we can make this world a beautiful place as we become igniters of beauty!
